I really don’t want to do this but I feel like I have no choice

kinomatika:

I’ve been panicking about making this post for a while now and I’m so overwhelmed and terrified and I can’t think of anything else to do right now so I guess I’ll do it.

There’s a pretty good chance that I might end up homeless soon.

The long and short of it is that my husband and I have been having some pretty terrible marital issues for the past year or so and It’s been getting progressively worse. I’ve been doing my best to salvage what I can and be encouraging when he needs encouraging and staying out of his way when he wants to be left alone, but what it all comes down to is that I’ve spent the last few years being severely emotionally abused and hurt and now I’m being thrown out.

It’s gotten to the point where my husband has been threatening to throw me out. 

I don’t have anything of my own. I have a computer, a few electronics, some at supplies, my clothes, and the money in my paypal (which isn’t much) and I’m absolutely terrified. 

I can’t go back to living with my parents because (as some of you know) my mother is extremely mentally unstable and my father is emotionally and physically and verbally abusive. 

My friends have offered a temporary stay but I have an overwhelming feeling of guilt & that I am burdensome (even though they have reassured me that I’m not - this is just my own personal fear and confusion talking) and so I really do not want to push myself onto them.

I cannot afford a place of my own and I am not in a place where I can shack up with strangers who I don’t know or trust, and I’m feeling very horrible and scared and empty and confused and lonely and unloved right now. I even feel sick writing this because I feel as though I am at my lowest low and I do not deserve to even be making a post like this, but I am really at my wits end and ive been crying for a few hours now and I’ve thrown up twice due to stress and I’m just… really fucked up.

This is the second abusive relationship I’ve suffered through in my life and I’m feeling pretty broken and terrified and helpless and worthless.

I know that this is a huge thing to ask of the general public, but if I could get a little money together, I might be able to take care of myself for a while, and maybe, just maybe figure something out where I won’t have to give up everything I’ve worked so hard for and give up friendships I’ve made through these past years to go back to living with my incredibly abusive parents.

If you feel like you want to donate anything… even a penny, even like fifty cents, my paypal is:

nerosfishbowl@gmail.com

If I can maybe scrounge together a little nest egg, I might be able to keep myself safe. I might be able to like… hopefully not self destruct. IDK how else to explain it. I’m just lost. I’m scared and lost and really, really really messed up.

I don’t know how much longer I have in this house, but… yknow. I’ll keep you updated.

Again I’m sorry for even posting this, I know it’s ridiculous and farfetched but I feel like it’s my last resort and I’m just… really scared.

got a haircut today hup

got a haircut today hup

barysan:

i’ll kick anyone’s ass. i’ll kick your ass. i’ll kick your dog’s ass. i’ll kick my own ass

barysan:

i’ll kick anyone’s ass. i’ll kick your ass. i’ll kick your dog’s ass. i’ll kick my own ass

assholedisney:

today I saw a preteen girl pick up Mean Girls at Target and ask her friend what it was. She didn’t even know. She said it sounded dumb. The people are forgetting. The world is changed. I feel it in the water. I feel it in the earth. I smell it in the air. Much that once was is lost, for none now live who remember it.

vacantvisionary:

I think it’s just really important to me that Homestuck doesn’t have a straight man.

There’s no one in Homestuck whose role is to snark about how wacky everyone else is, to be the reader-insert character aloof from the shenanigans around them. And every time anyone tries…

haaaast:

davebird

haaaast:

davebird

I became the love
of my life the day
I stopped trying to
swallow someone
else’s sense of
belonging.
i’m damn good in bed, Emma Bleker (via stolenwine)

pepperedfarts:

sketchlock:

kowabungadoodles:

pingass:

laubhaufen:

monkeyscandance:

speakslittle:

ashlee-ketchum:

abakkus:

fishwifemcguinn:

hilarydesign:

kurokotetsuya:

same

same

Pretty much

2003:

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2014:

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just fucking draw. don’t compare yourself to other people, don’t stop because you drew a lot last tuesday and you haven’t visibly improved. it takes time, effort, and a lot of perseverance. besides, no matter how “bad” you think you are, there’s still gonna be someone who thinks the stuff you produce is the best goddamn thing they’ve ever seen in their entire life. the artist you were five years ago would have their mind fucking blown by the artist you are today. so just draw a fuckton, because every new thing you draw is one drawing better than you were before.

I really needed this post

2003:

Trying my hand at shoujo always ended in a hilarious disaster.

2014:

Jumping on this post as well, because it is important to remember this at times.

2003:

2014:

13 year old me would be stoked to see where I am now. It’s really good to look back sometimes and appreciate how far you’ve come. And then imagine how much further you can go when you keep drawing.

2001:

2014: 

Even though I want to laugh my head off at my old stuff… it really is important to look at how far you’ve come in time.
And I think it’s not only good for yourself but for young artists / beginners as well, to see how other artists started out. So they see that no one is a great artist right off the bat.

2007:

2014:

It has already been eight years wow man.

This post gives me so much strength, i love to see everyone’s progress please do it too…

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2014:

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I’m a total sucker for progression things ahh

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I remember that it took me several hours to get what I got in 2007 while I literally just speedpainted the one on the right in maybe 16-30 minutes (I forgot to time). But yes, ALWAYS REMEMBER, YOU GET BETTER. 

2009 and 2011:

2014:

I did that first drawing when i was 13 and like holy shit 5 years did so much for me. Never would I have even dreamt of reaching this level ever

2007:


2013:

going through old sketchbooks reminded me how fun drawing always was!! don’t stop keep going! <3 <3

i should post selfies y/n

hylianears:

micdotcom:

Canadian music festival takes huge step against Native appropriation

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From their announcement:

For various reasons, Bass Coast Festival is banning feathered war bonnets, or anything resembling them, onsite. Our security team will be enforcing this policy.

We understand why people are attracted to war bonnets. They have a magnificent aesthetic. But their spiritual, cultural and aesthetic significance cannot be separated.

Bass Coast Festival takes place on indigenous land and we respect the dignity of aboriginal people. We have consulted with aboriginal people in British Columbia on this issue and we feel our policy aligns with their views and wishes regarding the subject. Their opinion is what matters to us.